Saturday, March 31, 2007
Well so much has happened since the common tests. First of all the Common Tests Results. Let's just say they're not too far off from what i expected them to be. I got hmm.. F F F F S, which is not so significantly different from what i expected which was F F F F F. So basically, i have to put my nose on the grinding stone and wake up. I have to reorganise my time you know.
Which brings me to my second point.
I'm sorry everyone whom i offended these past few days. I'm just trying to come to terms with some things in my life. There are some major changes to be made. I have come to the conclusion that some relationships have got to be defined. It's so frustrating to not know where the hell i stand. I will therefore also solemnly swear that i will focus on the friends that i can trust. As much as i will 'miss' being confused/led on/strung along/ led to believe something completely and totally untrue. Being that I'm completely new at handling my life. Please give me a chance.
So now that I've implemented some stuff, said what i have to say, i feel completely
liberated and
free!! For once I'm not bogged down by
what ifs and
if onlys. I take pity on all who will eternally hope for something that is an impossibility, just as i have. Please. It's time to move on. Get a hold on yourself.
Truth be told, i have been itching for a fight. But i now realise that that's not how civilized human beings operate. While there are things i regret not saying. I now thank
GOD that i didn't say them.
If anyone actually reads this, please note: I am an extremely
volatile person. I am not someone who hangs in between. I am not a moderate. I am an extremist. If i hate you, i REALLY hate you. i don't just dislike you. If i love you i REALLY love you. without a doubt. If you are my friend, my loyalty is yours.
Words have never been my forte. I've always believed
actions speak louder than words. Body language and expression are all i can show freely.
❤slipping on a banana peel at 10:29:00 am